Such a cute post! My cute answer: Consider watching a few YouTube of how skydivers routinely prepare to jump. Consider watching Youtubes on a beginners’ flying lessons. For the scared ones in us, taking on one of these is right out. For me, I always wanted to fly, but I wanted to start with hang gliders. I also knew I could (and wanted to) learn it myself. The life lesson from all my years of aviation is understanding first, knowing how to crash properly. Life’s crashes do happen. Choosing to manage or avoid life’s ongoing crashes is not for everyone.

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." (Matthew 11:28-30)

Paul Washer:
Means , come now quickly take my hand. Jesus is calling us because He loves us.

The game is rigged, there is a great lecture with answers on this link. [tdyf.com.au]

First, sit down and make a grateful list. List the people, experiences, and your talents that you are grateful for. Think about people and experience which have helped you get this far. Think about what you are good at, what you enjoy, what makes you happy. Then put it on your bathroom mirror, so you can see it every day.

Then you can list goals for your future.

Lose stinking thinking. Control what you can and endure what you must.

Sounds like you need to plant a tree. Grumichama sounds like an interesting fruit.

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I will start by how's your little one? Maybe look at the local school, if any around you have kids going to the school ask how they're doing in class, counting and words. You should she what kids think about their teacher.

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When you're going through hell, remember.....keep going. It's the only way out. One of the best pieces of advise I ever got was "Show up. Try to do the next right thing. Let God take care of the rest". We're all scared sometimes and for good enough reason, life's a real motherfucker sometimes. But living in fear isn't living. What's the worst that can happen? Failure? Who the hell hasn't failed? So if everyone has failed then why fear that? Death? That's going to happen no matter what so......Walk through your fear and live your life as best you can.

I know what you mean, I was recently diagnosed with T1 Diabetes, almost went into a coma and died.